Drew Carey’s public persona as the easygoing, wisecracking host masks a private grief that refuses to fade. Amie Harwick wasn’t just a former fiancée; she was the person he once believed he’d spend his life with. Their breakup was painful enough that he couldn’t even bear to see her photo, convincing himself that silence and distance were the only way to heal.

Then her unexpected text appeared, opening the door to forgiveness and a possible new chapter he never got to live. Her murder days later froze that moment in time, leaving him with unanswered questions and a fractured sense of intimacy. Carey now admits he thinks about her every day, carrying both the hope in her final words and the horror of what followed. In speaking openly, he’s trying to honor her memory—and slowly relearn how to trust love again.